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Monday, 4 August 2008

A mood spiral

Today has been one of those days when I find being a mum a little tricky. I'm not really sure how it starts, it just does.

It's a day when I feel I need back-up but it isn't there, there will be no PD's return to spend the next hour promising Isobel, no-one to help with the giggles and smiles at bathtime. Perhaps I just feel I need it because I don't have it?

Am I struggling because Isobel is being a little grumpy or is Isobel being a little grumpy because I'm struggling?

I should have gone out; I should have done this that and the other, but I didn't. So, rather than looking forward to the funtime that is bathtime, I'm kind of dreading it.

I'm sorry little girl, I promise tomorrow will be a brighter day.

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