Monday, 18 January 2010

Waving not drowning

Dear Me,

 

It is ok that you are struggling against a tide of anxiety that is reaching tsunami proportions.  This doesn’t mean you are losing the plot; it is just an expected dip in your recovery.

 

I know you feel disappointed in yourself as you really thought you were fixed and that the drugs do work, you thought you were yourself again.  You are yourself; you will be even more yourself again soon.

 

Please don’t beat yourself up for wanting to run away and weep, this too shall pass.  The light at the end of the tunnel is not an oncoming train; it’s your daughter with a torch.

 

x

 

 

 

8 comments:

TheMadHouse said...

Oh I have been there too. I love the torch quote, but honestly things do get better, you have to have the lows to see the highs

Amy said...

i hope you feel better soon. Take care of yourself and remember what you have written here to keep you positive xxxxxxxx

Mine said...

You can do it Zoe, I know you can. As you write, this too shall pass. We're here to help you believe that.

Take care xx

WADs said...

Love the torch quote too. Keep postitive and like Amy says reread what you have written here in hard times xxx

Mamma Po said...

Oh I was in that place a week ago. Somehow it's lifted and I feel like I can see again. You will too. Every day is a new beginning. xxx

MissB said...

It goes without saying but I'll say it anyway.........I can empathise and there is nothing wrong with feeling how you do just now. More than half the battle has been won - you've recognised it and written this great post as a reminder / reality check, whatever! Remember always, you are an amazing Mummy, NO ONE could be a better one to Isobel. She loves & adores you.......and I do too!! J xxx

MuddynoSugar said...

I know exactly how you feel...and beautifully written.

Metropolitan Mum said...

There will be spring soon and sunshine and days out again. It will pass! xx MM