I was pregnant, now I'm a parent and it still comes as a surprise. So here I am a single mum.
Sunday, 30 August 2009
I woke up just before 7 and Isobel woke a few minutes later. We
lolled about in bed drinking tea and reading books for about half an
hour. So far, I can definately say this is my second favourite way to
start the day. ( I am purposefully ignoring the fact that the first
word Isobel said to me today was 'daddy'.)
Isobel spent a good ten minutes running around with my knickers on her
head (clean ones of course!) saying bye-bye and coming back for a new
pair. Meanwhile I lay on my bed pretending to have a lie-in.
Then the urge to runaway became too much, so we packed our red and
white hankies and tied them to our sticks and left home.
Ok, we packed our red and white mini and we left home and headed south
to Grandma.
And that's where we are now.
Yesterday we enjoyed Kew with PD and today we are just being girls
together.
Actually it's not been a bad day.
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Thursday, 27 August 2009
Tote that barge; lift that bale...
And she's not even one and a half yet!
A saving grace or a disgrace

- Anxious - yes right now I am anxious. I have a big knot in my tummy, you know the kind that fills you with a bread baby sized sense of foreboding. Anxiety is actually something I feel a lot lately. It's what stops me answering the phone, it stops me going out. Basically it's pants - this must change!
- Resilient - you know Tubthumping and all that; Weebles wobble and they don't fall down. E.g. I still love to love even though I keep loosing.
- I can't put defiant because, as has been pointed out to me lately, I have lost my defiance. It's true I have, I'm not proud of it.
So, so far I am anxiously resiliant with more than a faint air of defeat about me... hmm attractive, let's see if we can do better than that...
Struggling to come up with more...
- A dreamer - I do have romantic notions and I dream in colour, I like to say this makes me hopeful, and I certainly don't see this as a bad thing - you have to have a dream else how you going to have a dream come true.
- Loving - I have certainly found a capacity in me to love more than I thought imaginable where my child is concerned, which is good. The inability to stop loving is possibly a bad thing, while it makes me generous, it also makes me a little foolish.
- Naughty - you can take this however you see fit...
Hmm a Naughty, loving dreamer, that sounds slightly better
- Last but not least let's go with Creative - it covers allsorts from baking to home making, via the office and back to the bedroom.
Not sure that is me in a nutshell, but it will do for a Thursday lunchtime - not quite a tick vg more of a could do better...
Not sure I can find 7 peeps, but maybe these would like to tell us more for a start; He of the Brouhahah; Butterfly Girl; Her Ampleness and Mr Ledger (no not Heath, that really would be very odd, but very creative...)
Wednesday, 26 August 2009
Monday, 24 August 2009
Word association
The book is called F*ck It.



There are no two words I wish to say more than these right now.
The book is right it is the 'ultimate spiritual way'. I mean don't you feel so much better just saying those words at any point in time, if only briefly.
Unfortunately, with a daughter who is learning to talk I feel I would be ill advised to say it out loud so maybe that is why it isn't quite working.
Let's face it these do not have quite the same effect, or the same hint of defiance:
Fudge it
Frig it
Fluff it
Foot it
Perhaps when I come up with a suitable word I will be able to rise above it all.
Any suggestions?
Sunday, 23 August 2009
Thursday, 20 August 2009
Wednesday, 19 August 2009
Pat-a-cake
I haven't learnt my lesson yet, I'm still having them.
A few months ago 'visions of jam tarts' danced in my head.
And in the last month Isobel and I have been busy with Tuesday baking (see I can be a real SAHM, well on Tuesdays anyway).
So, we have baked biscuits and muffins, but it wasn't until this week the end result was photo worthy.
When a diet talks of courgettes it does mean you should bake them into a cake - doesn't it?
Hey presto, fat free Cinnamon Banana loaf, made with spelt no less...
Tuesday, 18 August 2009
Just a wee thing
This evening Isobel used her potty for something other than a step from which to brush her teeth.
Yes she used it appropriately and actually requested it.
I haven't actually started potty training and although I was, a while ago, the proud owner of not one but two copies of Gina Ford's Potty Training in a Week, I have yet to read a word.
But I did buy a potty and occasionally before Isobel's bath I have sat her on it, hoping to catch the bathtime wee (it is universal isn't it?!).
Last night as Isobel stood up in the bath to wee, she pointed at her potty.
Tonight, she pointed at her potty, the waterworks begun, and I asked if she wanted to get out...
'Yes'
She sat on her potty and produced a few drips; stood up; sat down again and drissled some more.
I cheered!
That does count, doesn't it?
Does this mean I really have to read the book? I thought we were months away from this!
Monday, 17 August 2009
Night and seek
While most of it is probably fairly text book: bath, snuggles on her spare bed accompanied by bottle, a story and a cuddle.
Occasionally going to bed with her bottle when she subtly posts it through the bars of her cot and says 'night-night'; always then relieved of it before she falls asleep.
Isobel waves bye-bye and blows kisses from her cot, and we are away.
But, somewhere in the midst of this calm tranquility is a little game to be played with Daddy:
This evening wasn't a daddy day but she looked in all his hiding places just to be sure (he added two new spots last night so she checked those too), we wouldn't want him lurking anywhere uninvited would we now?
Tomorrow she will probably just call his name a couple of times.
The next day she may not.
Saturday, 15 August 2009
Gossip
Well I'm here to say it's not true, not true at all and heaven help him when she really enters that phase in her life.
Isobel has been busy growing the most enormous pair of molars. A pair of molars that have terrorised her gums, more than she has our days.
Don't get me wrong, there have been tantrums, indeed some days have been heavily seasoned with them, but they have always been the seasoning not the main dish.
The molars are through, and life is easier again; there are other teeth on the way, but as this is our first experience of teething we really shouldn't complain.
Oh, and by the way, a bear with a sore head has nothing on a child with sore gums.
The real gossip is that Isobel has, this evening, spent 20 minutes calling Iggle-Piggle daddy. Questions will be asked.
Thursday, 13 August 2009
Co-ordinates
Then, off she scampered (what a great and under used word) to her bedroom.
I heard the drawer open, and close again.
She scampered back (yes, I know the same word twice, shoot me, I just realised I like it), proudly clutching a cardie in her hands.
She then proceeded to match it to my knickers.
Tuesday, 11 August 2009
And there is always Sunday
And ended in the paddling pool in our back garden.
I heart summer.
*Please don't bother telling me what I already know - the lovely happy picture shows every ounce of my extra weight, I have already been asked if I have a baby in my tummy in the persistant way only four year olds can get away with, and this picture will serve as a mighty fine fridge picture.
Just focus on how happy we are, please!
In which I know it's been a good day
And this is the view in my mirror on the way back to my mummy's house.
Then I spend a lovely evening outside at Apple Tree Cafe with my best friend Miss B, and the brushing on my foot is my napkin, not a mouse.
And I seriously start wondering about moving home.
Monday, 10 August 2009
In which we were not alone
Trouble is, as if often the case at these events I often feel woefully inadequate. I had simply stuffed swim nappies and Isobel's swimming costume in our bag and off we went. (Yes, only one costume not two, can't put a wet costume back on a babe - it's impossible, so impossible I didn't even try!)
Foolishly I hadn't bothered with her towelling poncho; thriftily I hadn't bought a sun suit for the very few odd days we make it to the sea; AND I had decided to just buy lunch from the fab cafe next door.
And I certainly didn't pack a costume for me.
Everyone else was well prepared and stocked for their week at The Hut. That is my only defence: I knew we were only going for a few hours one afternoon.
Here's some more pics:
One thing I did do right is I didn't bother to pack a book or get a deckchair out.
In which we head to the seaside
Yes, we were back on the Island for a family catch up and that means heading to The Beach Hut. I capitalise it because to my family there is only one hut and any sign of sun means it's A Hut Day.
So there I am standing at the waters edge, camera poised ready to take photos of my little girl's first toe dip in the sea. Strictly speaking she dipped a toe or ten last year but this was to be her first self propelled foray into the sea.
I imagined us splashing around where the water just lapped the sand, walking hand in hand in the shallowest of shallows...
Instead, I hurriedly tuck my dress in my knickers to hold her hand; and then in order to prevent my daughter washing herself out to sea I find myself hastily tucking my camera in my bra - good look. So good in fact I had to do it on the second trip to the sea too - when will I learn.
(But would squeezing the extra 7lbs of me into a swimming costume have been a better look? Actually I think maybe it would have, rather than being the towny in a dress and beads to boot!)
I won't leave you with that image; try these instead:
To say Isobel took to the sea like a duck to water would indeed be an understatement. She followed the waves out up to her little chest on a quest for 'Bub-bals'. Leaving me to clutch the straps of her costume as she waded... and waded.
The sea splashed her hat and she barely stopped.
Apptly titled 'Mini Posts'
And how true that can be.
While I am debating how much reviewing etc I wish to do on my blog, and whether or not I am just writing it for fun or do I want to exploit the opportunities to make some cash, one thing I do love is the sense of community.
So while I may not make it to Butlins tomorrow, I am so pleased to have made some 'virtual' friends.
The purpose of this post is to point you all in the direction of the lovely mini-post responses to my post last Wednesday.
If you haven't read them, please do.
And if you wrote them a very BIG THANK YOU!
Saturday, 8 August 2009
A taste of posts to come
A discussion on how hard motherhood is when your daughter's favourite
game involves waving and you realise your arm continues waving long
after your hand has stopped.
Why my back is burnt and Isobel has sand in every crease.
How not to confuse a napkin sliding off your lap with a mouse running
over your toes.
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